Getaway Ticket

Well, I am sure that most of you guys have already started feeling sicked of my signature phrase, "I'm Really Tired"

And the "Tired" I meant here is not just an outer shell expression, like I've just sweat tonnes of mineral salts off my body or have run a 5 km track but rather, feeling really tired from within the core of me, myself and I. I really do. And it's not about how many task I've been assigned to do at work as I really don't give a damn about it anymore.

Please excuse me of keep repeating myself but I'd like to stress again with a big sigh, "I'm Tired"

Yes, you may wonder that what is there for a girl like me who had just stepped into her early 20s having so much of this kinda tired excuses. Didn't life has just begun at this point of age??? It's supposed to be but somehow not for me.

I'd walked the journey that perhaps no one understands, it's more than just my laughter and sorrow. Everything happened so fast in a row that I could not even track
yet the effect is long lasting. Worse is I don't have a strength to go against it, at all.

God loves me. God loves me not. Are you a maize that I'm so cornfused now?

Responsibility.Commitment.Attachment. Something I can't escape from but only confrontation. There's a limit to everything but I'm not sure is there any for me or I'd actually surpassed it.

Aih.. Coming this May, I'd really want to take off for an island vacation. Perhentian? Redang? Langkawi? I've yet to decide. All I know is I want to bag a luggage of my "tiredness" there and just let them dissolve in the breeze. And then, Choya shall come back as a totally new and refreshed girl with only aims ahead more than anything else. I'll try :)

Just like someone who has been telling me, everything will be fine. It will :)

I'm not complicated at all, but my life is.

Would You Be There?

"If I were blue, would you be there for me? And whisper in my ear that's okay?"

Well, what can I say.. STPM had finally launched its last attack to the poor 6th formers. Seriously, I had never felt so terrified of getting results before. No, never. Maybe because I knew that, regardless of what kinda results I got, the next step was certain as I still get to carry on schooling. But that's not the case for STPM. Screw it means hell you go and just forget about campus life.

On 11th March 2008, I woke up at 5.30 am because I had an appointment with my boss in Red Rock Hotel at 6.45 am. Hello~ Hello~ Hello~ Don't ya think nonsense, not to buka bilik but then to attend a BNI meeting. God knows why the meeting must be held so damn early in the morning :S Well, what do I have to say bout the meeting? I'm sure you guys must think that corporate people are high profile individuals but bear in mind, they are lame jokers too :S Felt ZzzZ in the meeting though.

And then came 9.45 am where I quickly find an excuse to leave that function and shoot off to my office. On a half-day leave and wanna settle my things soonest possible. And the time seems to crawl, crawl crawl crawl and finally it reaches 1 o' clock. I checked out from the office with Vincent's well wishes.

On the way to school really felt like a journey to hell, man. It's like adrenaline's really pumping till I wanna go insane. I can't believe 3 months had passed in just a blink of eye and whether all the effort and investment that I had put in for the past 11 years would be a worthwhile journey or not. Wonder not anymore as I reached the school. The moment I released my seat belt, I saw PGV 3646 came vrooming in and next, she entered my car then both of us started to OMS~

:( Then Kah Whai joined in with both good news and bad news. I heard that some of my friends had failed their Maths and suddenly, my common sense struck my mind and I think I won't be an exception from that boat too :( Hysterical~

Huo Kit arrived and both of us, Yuyu and I firmed up our guts to face the truth. We couldn't be wondering forever in the car, right? I felt weak and floaty~ I barely have the strength to say hi and bye to all my dear friends who were present on my funeral day :(

Entered the office and I was damn pissed with the kak kerani whom was trying to do something thought would be ahhh~ so funny but failed terribly. Damn la, give me my results before I ripped off your bungkus BARUAH! But, before I had a chance to rip her, Mr. Cheng had already ripped RM20/-out of my pocket : nan ya dei~

So, gotten the results and three of us headed off to the car again. Sat there, unwilling to take a look of our results. And then came 2 of the top scorers into the car, our heroes Kah Whai and Zhi Xiang. Kah Whai on my left, Zhi Xiang on my right, Yu at driver's seat and Kit at the front seat. Three of us had a really "short" time to uncover our results but I'm quite surprised that Zhi Xiang and Kah Whai can patiently kill their time in the car with us :D All of us were like persuading Kit to reveal his results first but then he was too firm to be influenced so finally, I was the one who potong the stim

I took a look at my results and wwwwwWWWhooooaaaHHHHH!!!! SAU KA LIAO, KANNEH!!!!!

Sau.Ka.Liao. ???

Yes, sau ka liao but then not sau all A's but all ALPHABETS... LOL!

Yes, and that was my results. To be really honest, I'm quite happy with my PA, Biology and Chemistry as I expected my results to be about that level, maybe slightly better than expected too but kinda disappointed for my Maths. Although I expected my Maths to be quite screwed but I never thought that it would really be that screwed~

Then we just sat in the car, feeling all emotional of the results except for
Zhi Xiang and Kah Whai whom should be celeberating their hard-earned fantastic results with the others instead of commiserating with us, the not so fortunates. Well, a friend in need is a friend indeed :) Just imagine, sitting down in the car for 2 hours under the baking hot sun in the school carpark mourning over results, not their own but of their friends' :) It was quite an awkward thing as what Kah Whai said but you made it, Abura! CheerSs :D

So after mourning for 2 hours, everyone felt weak and hungry. Although the results were pretty disappointing but humans still have to eat anyways :) So we went for a late lunch in Mizzi and the lunch turned out to be a little emo-free than expected. People say that sweetness can overcome bitterness, therefore we had a sweet tooth king, Chow Huo Kit that scooped this much of ice cream :P

After the late lunch, Kah Whai decided to go abortion so, we went for swimming in my apartment :P It was one hell of a crazy time in the pool where Zhi Xiang had screamed till the kids came out peeping from the balcony~ Swt! WHatever it is, at least I swam my results away~~

Initially, we planned for a movie outing after washing up but then it was too late to catch any shows as there were no midnight shows on Tuesday by the way :S That was when we decided to head to Jamal for a ayam sempoi feast! Hahaha! YumZie~ And basically returned home at about 12 plus and the vision of results reappeared in the mind again. What I am afraid is not about how many A's I did not get but just afraid will be offered some kinda stupid course such as forestry and agricultural in the Uni (and that also need CGPA 3.5, right Hock?) LOL!

Perhutanan? It's easy, aint it. All you have to is to carry a marker pen with you and pick any trees that you think is blocking your way, mark it like this:-

dah tua dah ni.. settle ajelah....

suhu bumi meningkat....

Pertanian? Err...

sweat...

DAMN POTONG!!!!!!!