I'm Done With Mathematics

HA-HA(Takuya's style)......

Okay, I can now officially say that I'm done with Mathematics T, X, Y, Z.... No more weird Mathematics anymore please....


What more can I say? I screw up this paper again........... aih~ I don't even know whether to say the paper is easy or it's not. Questions seems easy but God damn, I can't find the fucking answers!

I returned home with a big S.A.D face. Just dropped on the bed with a long S.I.L.E.N.CE. Can't even sleep, there's just zero strengh for me to even lift up my hand to answer the phone. That's how bad. It seems like the world was really collapsing. It took me an entire noon to get over it though I know I shouldn't be moping on something that is out of my control. It's not the first time I screw up maths, is it? :) This time is no different than other time but at least I tried. Enough said.

Then my mood switched from down-to-the-max, slightly decreasing cuz I finally got over it after some good self reflect. What is not meant to be and what is over, it's all history. I shall be glad that Mathematics is all over, and I shall never have to kill my brain cells and go hysterical over it again :D There's nothing to be anticipated for in my results now, since I pretty much accepted the worst already. Ya, I feel whole lot more better now. And I just wanna go wild after tomorrow, all FEARY subjects are so overr......!

So, all I want to say is that.....

MATHEMATICS

++--- Paper Cut ---++ by Mathematics

I'm not really in a jovial mood of writing something happening thou there are alot of "happenings" in school these few days. My mind has totally worn out and my fingers are working on its own. I don't really know what to say nor what to do nor what to think now, my fingers are like working on their own right now.
"I'm holding on a rope, you got me 10 feet of the ground~" - TimbaLAN apologising.

Yea, Maths 1 is finally over. I know I should be feeling all energized and jumpy. It's like no more MATHS 1!!!

creepy and crappy~

It's all over but I'm not really that happy. I just don't know why and what is wrong with me. Just so sick of trying and forgetting and re-doing then failing. It's like it's damn depressing that you know you could have done something cuz you just know how to do it but you just can't seem to express it. It's just Maths, why am I such a failure?? It's just numbers. NUMBERSSS! Yet I..... I don't know. The Maths Paper 1 kinda drowned my exam spirit.... I tried, but why is it never enough??? You can pump a formula into my head a thousand times over a night but I wake the next morning remembering none. Phobia is a nice word to substitute the word, stupid. I swear I never want to do anything that has got to do with....

MATHEMATICS EVER AGAIN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE OTHER THAN COUNTING MONEY!!!!!

did I just sound like a brainless bimbo???

Even if I did, I know I'm not alone. I hope :) Seriously, though Maths is not my cup of milkshake but I really have to admit that, I do really feel impressed by those who can really go all their way out for Maths :) Cuz I know I'll never be able to be one of those people.... ~ Only wai ham in my life.

I've never regretted choosing this route, to be in the science stream though I'm struggling with the syllabus but it takes me 4 years to realise that, this is not a place where I should be. So takde kelayakan. And I haven't spoken to my mum bout my decision to drop science soon after STPM. It's driving me crazy......

Okay, enough said and I know this is a very lame post. But it feels good to talk and talk and talk like this with nobody interfering. Then people just drop by, read and go! That's the whole purpose of blogging after all for me. Bah kata pepatah, "UH UA TIOK KONG, UH PUI TIOK PANG!" haha!

Face Our T.R.I.A.L.S, Peeps!

Well, 3 MORE PAPERS TO GO!!! YAYz!! Gotta BREAK FREE like a bird!!!!!

~woot i'm coming, mutton goes yay!~

I don't know why but I actually feel more relaxed and stress-free during the TRIALS week itself than many many weeks before this. Not really that revision-goes-crazy these few days. Of cuz, it doesn't mean that I'm ALL-READY-TO-GO but I just think that I can't do last minute reading. It triples the stress and I just don't want to overstress myself over this and have an emotional breakdown later. But honestly, I almost brokedown on Sunday. Gosh! The feeling was a nonsensical one!!

So Monday was Biology Paper 1 and then later was Maths Paper 1... Biology was another ting-tong-tiang session for me :) Same goes for Chemistry Paper 1... AHHAHAA!

My my, it's just as easy as A B C.... :D

Well, then what about Maths 1? LOL!!! This time if really wanna become matrix pro also tak jadi dee, cuz only 7 marks were allocated for that question, lets divide by 2 and I shall get 3.5 marks! :D Dey~ I don't believe that I sat there for 3 hours knowing nothing! Voices of Huo Kit and Yuyu kept haunting my mind, I know they'd taught me this before but sad... I couldn't remember a single thing! 3 HOURS! It's like = to my afternoon nap adee. If there's only one thing I can be proud of in Maths is... I could withstand 3 hours of blank boredom without falling asleep during the examination... :) I learned that, there were some friends who told me that they didn't have enough time, wish I could donate some to them. As usual, Lay Mei requested for more writing papers, I feel so tempted to turn and offered her, "Nah! Take mine la.. How many? 3, 4 or 5?" By the way, I still tied up all the loose papers(empty or written) and passed up...AHAHA!

WHY MATHS??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so gone in Maths, I hope Pn. Tok wont humiliate me in the class again :)
Anyway, I still have Gerard's Maths 2 to save me, barely pass but at least... some figures :)

The happiest paper to me so far I guess the award goes to... PA 2! Alright, it doesn't mean that I know everything and overconfident okay. But it's just that, this is the first time I could finish attempting every single questions in the paper! Never had I be able to finish PA in my life!! I LOST MY FIRST TIME TO TRIALS!

Maybe I should follow Ryan's trademark pose,

Oooops! Tomorrow is Chemistry Paper 2, and AHAHA! It's close to 11 p.m now, and I still haven't touched any single notes yet for today. In fact, was being a tv caterpillar together with my mum, the whole day! Speaking bout tv, there's a very interesting show on AEC that shows the true story of A Walk To Remember Anita Mui, acted by a crew of casts that mimic everyone exactly! And NOPE! I'm not a fan of her, and never! But it's really interesting though. Her childhood experiences were very the koh lian~ There was really such a solid reason why she grew up looking so boyish.

I've always thought that the story about her liking Andy Lau was a rumour made up by the media. Ooops! It's true according to the show now and guess where and how she first bumped into Andy Lau??? Red carpet, nope. Movie awards, no. On set, NO! She and her sister were actually on their way rushing to a low paid stage performance somewhere, you know like koh tai and she asked the taxi driver to langgar the red light and guess what HAPPENED NEXT?

THE TAXI KIAM KIAM LONG TIOK ANDY LAU WHO WAS CROSSING THE ROAD!!!

And I've never known that Andy Lau was a police when he was in his younger days!!! AHAHHA! You know, as in the green uniformed chai yan we always see in the TVB dramas? LOL! They got down from the car and got fined by him :P ahhahaha! Imagine Andy Lau fining you :P Okay, that time Anita Mui was only 18 years old and both of them were tiny people in HK. During her last concert, she finally revealed her feelings for Andy Lau, but she was devastated that he did not make it to her last concert. :'( Just imagine, from 18 - 40++ years old.. so many years of ngam luen! Maybe this is what they meant by, admiration from afar.

Then during her last concert, she wore a wedding gown she had made for herself 10 years ago but she never got the chance to wear it and walked the aisle with that special person she admired dearly. I saw my mum's eyes went teary(emonya her..) as Anita Mui said that, 10 years later, she still couldn't win his heart and never able to fulfil her wish of being his bride. So, she decided to wear the wedding gown in her last concert and married herself to the STAGE instead since she had spent all her lifetime on the STAGE since a kid. Hmmm.. So emo nia~ Yoh~ but it's quite HOT la when they showed Andy Lau got stucked in a jam and got down from the car and ran to her concert! Din know, all oso so emo one in real life. Wanna die d oso like acting a drama :P

AHAHHA! Tomorrow is Chemistry and I can't believe I'm doing a paparazi work here some more. Nevermind la... Tomorrow only PAK SOOI....LOL! My real TRIALS is not the examination but the moments when I got my results.. :P GOODNIGHT and GOODLUCK everybody!!!!!

iGlooomy

As crazy as it may sound, the time between 7-8pm makes me feel really gloomy. I hate being trapped in the midst of dark and light. It makes me feel really mang chang and...moody!
And it's not as easy as hiding myself under the blanket until the time is gone and creep out after that, somehow, I could still feel the gloomy atmosphere as if it has been programmed into me.

Picture taken at 7.35 p.m.
ARGHHH!!!! I HATE THIS KINDA DIM LIGHTING!!

It's hard to explain the symptoms. It's like I don't feel right whether sitting down, watching t.v, eating dinner or sleeping. I just feel, uneasy like something is bothering me and I just feel like going AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! SUNDAY makes me feel worse... ~

When can I gain a total freedom and just fly to anywhere I like at anytime and seconds of the time? Without having to ask for permissions and being interrogated when home. I know it may sound a little bit irresponsible and fei lui type but there are times when I just really wanna go...

...fly up high to the sky...
*piu ha piu ha* ....... like nobody's business~

Wouldn't that be nice??

Aih~

It's just so sressful and tiring that the routine just go on and on like each and everyday boring day. Hectic lessons in school, housechores, homework, exams, dis & dat...bla bla bla........ Speaking about housechores, my mum & I did an annual event today, Spring Cleaning... :P We started at 1 p.m and ended at 7 p.m! Truthfully, I'm very exhausted right now. Everyday my mum has different chores for me. Not that I wanna complain as I'm part of the penghuni but it's kinda potong steam sometimes as I've to spare some time to study maa..:( Thought of reading some Kenegaraan but just way too tired to flip through the pages memorising Perkara 152 and Perkara 153 :P That's too much to handle.

Speaking bout exams, big *sigh*....... 2 more weeks to trials and 2 more months to STPM. The limited time left is not quite motivating to me though. Instead, I'm feeling more laid back. Gosh..what a positive feedback mechanism! No way, I must find myself a MINDBLOWING STIMULUS!!!

And I found this :P

Barter System: A Laptop (Acer 5920) for my Results.

Results that do not quote this grades again:

Pengajian Am: C
Mathematics: F
Chemistry: D+
Biology: C+

Will I be able to do better than that???

A word of motivation is needed, it goes...

TIAO ZHAN WO ZHI CHI, TIAO ZHAN FENG HE YU

tiu nia seng ah...

EMO Up My Life

Oh my God, it has been one hell of a stressful week. I'm depressingly traumatized by highlighters..*sigh*

Yea yea, Power Puff Girls have their very own edition of Biology Volume 2...

And gosh,I did not realise that I have so much more to go for Biology until I read this from the syllabus provided:

Okay, if it's unclear to you, let me tell you what it reads:
BIODIVERSITY (16 periods)

Oh dear, I didn't know I've been sleeping away for so many periods during Biology :P How am I supposed to fit all these 16 periods of informations into my brain within these few days??

Suddenly I thought of my childhood hero...

DORAEMON!

That fella's pocket is truly a Kedai Serbanika..

If you've been a Doraemon fan, you would've come across one of his MOST USEFUL TOOL EVER INVENTED: ROTI AJAIB!

I still remember there was once when Nobita was whining and crying cuz he couldn't finish studying and he had to sit for the papers the next day.

Nobita: Macam mana la Doraemon, aku tak boleh habis baca ni???

Doraemon: Padanlah! Awak ni selalu aje main bila ada masa lapang dan tak mau belajar.

Nobita: Ahhhh~ Tolonglah aku Doraemon...

Doraemon: Baiklah untuk kali terakhir, biar aku cari (korek poket).....AHA! ROTI AJAIB!

Still remember the idea of how the ROTI AJAIB works? Simple.

1) Get a piece of bread.
2) Flip to the page you want to memorize from the book.
3) Then press the bread hard onto the surface of the page.

Like this...

Then, turn over the bread and you'll eventually see something like this...

And munch on it, you'll then remember those facts!

Just this easy! :D

So now you can tell your mother that you don't need anymore Brand's Chicken Essence. All you need is more, more and more Gardenia breadssss, those without wings though... :P

Okay okay.. I know that sounds really lunatic but I'm really full of shitz right now, please excuse me.

Aih~

I'm feeling really creepy and crappy these days. I'm doing nothing more than JUST GAINING MORE & MORE WEIGHT. My mission for this holiday doom again...*sigh*

Have you guys ever felt the feeling of missing something yet you don't know what's the 'it' that you're missing? I hate the feeling of lying down on the bed at late night knowing that I have to sleep but my mind is feeling otherwise. I hope this is for temporary. School is calling me back, soon.

Like those characters? :D They are called EMO Cartoons. So exotic :P

Gai, really gai..... I haven't completed my Chemistry homework. It seems like I'll never be able to impress Pn. Narinder. 9 weeks to go... 9 weeks to go.. Chill chill~ cool down~ relax~

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm.. I guess this is the end of my post. Not in the moood of producing long shitz tonight :P Anyway, have to wake up really early tomorrow morning to go Mahindarama for Dana. Really need to peace off my mind there before I go completely haywire... Perhaps Guleng Hood will show me some light! :P Brothers & Sisters, seekers of truth...... ahahahahhaha!