Fountain of Inner Devotions

As I walk down this road of uncertainty
I know it is leading me to a fountain of sin
Yet, I will choose to leave all promised divinity
If I know I will see you at the end

In the grand darkness,
How I am seeing much more of myself
In the great depth
How I feel free to venture free as an unbound soul
I feel you everywhere, foolish sentiments
Oh they are...
And I know I will see you at the end

As coldness creeps in
Your hands are mine to hold
Two pairs of undaunted eyes
We exchange gazes of eternal bonding
Dive and rise as we go
Against all odds
Freedom are all ours

Feel with our delicate senses
Witness with our fine eyes
Needless for words
Anymore, as we do not listen
To the lies, laments and criticisms..
Of the hypocritical world

We. Belong. Together.
No Limits




Dedicated to all souls ought to be set free :)

By Saudari Hazel

Stitching A Cloud of Dream

Hey.... it's been a while since I last wrote. Err.. correction! I did actually write alot of posts, just that they are incomplete ones LOls :P Pending to be published!

It's not that I've lost my personal therapeutic session - writing and expressing but it's because I have been really busy stitching a cloud of dream :) Yes, life itself is like a dream and we are never asleep :)

And what exactly do I mean? You will know when it's time! As for now, I can only pray for storms to pause and rain to go away :)

I have a mixture of feelings tonight, mostly regarding my life so far... at the age of 22. What have I achieved or have I made any statement that is ought to be remembered for life? Or am I not satisfied with what I already attained because I keep looking at life through a microscope? Amplifying manifold, an invisible speck unsurprisingly becomes an insurmountable mountain.

I hate to admit it but yes, I have unknowingly chasing after something in life that I myself do not know what is that missing piece that gives the final completion to my puzzle. I am not sure if it's even an object, a human or just an imagination. I just know I'm waiting for that time to come, and that is when my life will begin- all over again :)

Suddenly, I feel my life is at a perfect pace (I might think otherwise tomorrow :P) I might "grow up" a little bit quickly but it's just what I can do, a step closer to finding the last piece of puzzle.

And finally, my mum have accepted the fact that I've grown up. Less naggings and she seemed to have started to trust in me that I can get hold of myself and maneuver my own wheel of life. Happy for that, absolutely.

It's bedtime now at 2 a.m, always the best time of the day :) Cold and quiet, a peaceful spirit sings a happy song :) It's random to say this out of the blue, but I just realised...

I have started to love myself more. And it's when you learn to love yourself, you open your heart to loving someone else, and it's when someone else will love you in return :) Nights!

Happy Valentines Day in advance!
Treasure the person who walks this far in life with you,
Through times are bad
Remember how the love story once unfolds
Through times are good
And waive on the page how the love story will end
Till death do us apart.

-tung hing-

New Moon

Time really flies. Just a year ago, I got my eyes on Twilight and was way crazy over Rob Pattinson. Patiently and anxiously, waited and waited for New Moon to come back and was thinking about it almost everyday. 365 days had passed in a blink of an eye and New Moon has returned and I shall proudly say, it's better than Twilight!

Good CastsSss!

Though I still think Rob Pattinson is hot and amazing, but somehow find his character a little bit boring, yea.. he's supposed to be the emo guy but..... alrite forget it! He's still cute tho! :)

It's December and 2009 will be coming to an end, fast huh? New Moon is the peak for me and I'm glad it's not a disappointment! Other than that, 2009 is not a good year for me. It's a year that I wandered really alot, got myself really lost, found myself back and trapped in a dead end.. it's just... I'm just glad it's going to be over soon. At least, I know I'm closer to the day... the day I've always been dreaming :)

Looking from the brighter side, 2009 is a breakthrough period for myself too. At least, things fall as I planned towards the end of the year coupled with some surprises too, like AAR Reality Check :P I know this doesn't sound that right for a 21 year old girl who is supposed to be studying and sitting for exams, enjoying her youth in campus and all sorts... but I do find some kinda peace of satisfaction in my job now as a beauty therapist.

Though I'm a beauty therapist, I admit I still have a long way to go to be top note beauty myself LOLOLOLs :D All I know is that, beauty doesnt come free... alot of work, time and money involved here for a woman to feel and look good. Of cuz, God is unfair and it's not a crime to be born less perfect or ugly but it's definitely a crime not to put in effort to look pleasant :P

And... it really feels great earning an income, that helps out the family a little, for ourselves, for the near future.. it's the sense of adulthood. And I have no idea why I'm such a rushie to grow up, maybe it's because I've always wanted to be independent, bitter childhood memories, to be in control or maybe.. I just want my own Life. A Life that is branded, Me.

Will be turning 22 in a month, when age is just a figure but time has its calls. I'm not afraid of getting old but I do have a phobia as time travels because there are much things I want to see, to feel, to honour, to trust, to love about the world out there and if I were to die tomorrow, I know I'll regret not having them accomplished :)

Maybe it's true that there are some dreams one lifetime is not enough to catch, but there will some dreams that come true if you only learn to believe and be initiative. Dreams don't come if you don't rest your mind and find it through the sleeps of souls. Let go of the stronghold that deceives you, what matters at the end of the day is be grateful that you're waking up everyday to the world that belongs to you- family, friends, soulmates, pets... anyone that you know lives for you and vice versa.

HappY BeLatEd ThaNksGivIng!