I'm Done With Mathematics

HA-HA(Takuya's style)......

Okay, I can now officially say that I'm done with Mathematics T, X, Y, Z.... No more weird Mathematics anymore please....


What more can I say? I screw up this paper again........... aih~ I don't even know whether to say the paper is easy or it's not. Questions seems easy but God damn, I can't find the fucking answers!

I returned home with a big S.A.D face. Just dropped on the bed with a long S.I.L.E.N.CE. Can't even sleep, there's just zero strengh for me to even lift up my hand to answer the phone. That's how bad. It seems like the world was really collapsing. It took me an entire noon to get over it though I know I shouldn't be moping on something that is out of my control. It's not the first time I screw up maths, is it? :) This time is no different than other time but at least I tried. Enough said.

Then my mood switched from down-to-the-max, slightly decreasing cuz I finally got over it after some good self reflect. What is not meant to be and what is over, it's all history. I shall be glad that Mathematics is all over, and I shall never have to kill my brain cells and go hysterical over it again :D There's nothing to be anticipated for in my results now, since I pretty much accepted the worst already. Ya, I feel whole lot more better now. And I just wanna go wild after tomorrow, all FEARY subjects are so overr......!

So, all I want to say is that.....

MATHEMATICS

++--- Paper Cut ---++ by Mathematics

I'm not really in a jovial mood of writing something happening thou there are alot of "happenings" in school these few days. My mind has totally worn out and my fingers are working on its own. I don't really know what to say nor what to do nor what to think now, my fingers are like working on their own right now.
"I'm holding on a rope, you got me 10 feet of the ground~" - TimbaLAN apologising.

Yea, Maths 1 is finally over. I know I should be feeling all energized and jumpy. It's like no more MATHS 1!!!

creepy and crappy~

It's all over but I'm not really that happy. I just don't know why and what is wrong with me. Just so sick of trying and forgetting and re-doing then failing. It's like it's damn depressing that you know you could have done something cuz you just know how to do it but you just can't seem to express it. It's just Maths, why am I such a failure?? It's just numbers. NUMBERSSS! Yet I..... I don't know. The Maths Paper 1 kinda drowned my exam spirit.... I tried, but why is it never enough??? You can pump a formula into my head a thousand times over a night but I wake the next morning remembering none. Phobia is a nice word to substitute the word, stupid. I swear I never want to do anything that has got to do with....

MATHEMATICS EVER AGAIN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE OTHER THAN COUNTING MONEY!!!!!

did I just sound like a brainless bimbo???

Even if I did, I know I'm not alone. I hope :) Seriously, though Maths is not my cup of milkshake but I really have to admit that, I do really feel impressed by those who can really go all their way out for Maths :) Cuz I know I'll never be able to be one of those people.... ~ Only wai ham in my life.

I've never regretted choosing this route, to be in the science stream though I'm struggling with the syllabus but it takes me 4 years to realise that, this is not a place where I should be. So takde kelayakan. And I haven't spoken to my mum bout my decision to drop science soon after STPM. It's driving me crazy......

Okay, enough said and I know this is a very lame post. But it feels good to talk and talk and talk like this with nobody interfering. Then people just drop by, read and go! That's the whole purpose of blogging after all for me. Bah kata pepatah, "UH UA TIOK KONG, UH PUI TIOK PANG!" haha!

Pain Of The Night

by Anonymous

Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range
There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it?
A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry
A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll.

I'm tired.