SPAIN ROCKS!!!

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He's just so hot tonight... luv him!!!

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OMG!!! SPAIN PAWNS EURO 2008!!! I'm so excited!!! I can't sleeeeeEEEEPPPPP!!!! How I wished I were there for LIVE! and share the taste of victory!!!!! And all thanks to Fernando Torres.. He's GODLIKE MODE tonight!!! Although previously, my impression towards him was just another pretty boy, so-so to me, I don't quite fancy pretty boys but now he definitely OWNS with his performance tonight!!! :P

A really good game from him. He can really run like a horse!!! The whole night he was just the limelight... He played tooooooo well for me :P Although score was only 1-0 but you guys should have seen how hard he strived.. but then buta-buta get yellow card >.<

H.O.T Stuff!

Hahaha! I know you guys must be thinking.. WHAT THE HECK?! Didn't Choya just praise Cesc Fabregas previously before the game and within 93 odd minutes she changed her mind? Damn.. she must be changing her mind like changing panties...!!!!

mm ngan luk sek~

Lolz! I don't know. I just feel so happy now. Spain finally won... In decades of history!!!! Aihz.. HAHAHAHA!!! Celebrato koniya~

ROCKS!

How I wished that I could marry a footballer.. Hahaha! Dream on yes~ :P But then, I don't care... Just loving Fernando TOrres now Heee!!!!!

Pinkbag~ Your Ballack got injured. Quite badly neeh~ Are you hurt or not..?? Haahaha!!!! Sorry yea, Germany tiok pawn.. hahahaha!

It's time for bedtime and gosh, I'm still very excited!!!

-Choya Torres-

Spain vs Germany

Oh my God........ It's FINALS for Euro 2008 later at 2.45 a.m and I'm so excited~~~ :O NopesS, I'm not a football freak but then... I do watch it and keep myself updated with erm.. both the score and players :P And tonight, I'm exceptionally excited cuz.. SPAIN MADE IT TO THE FINALSSSS!!!!

*Oh yea oh yea, come on come on.. don't cha wish your boyfriend was hot like him... don't cha wish your boyfriend was a freak like him.. DON'T CHA!!!*

body.skills.looks

and style....

I certainly din know he knew kungfu...

and he's none other than...

4 is actually a good number... Hee!

Nah.. It's not just him that made me fell for Spain. Iker Cassilas, Raul Gonzales, Antonio Reyes, David Villa, Fernando Tores and the list goes on.. Lolz! Spain's players are always astonishingly charming. Hahahaha! And please... they are skillful too okay?!! Not just looks~

I guess ever since Kenny Sia poked fun on the design of football for World Cup 2006, Adidas had been really cautious of their design this time around for Euro 2008! Hahahaha... No more padSssS.. :P

And I shall repeat myself once more. It's SPAIN vs GERMANY! I already bet my seluruh harta on Spain.... Lolz! Cannot disappoint me. I had enough disappointment for the past days~

SPAIN

GERMANY

Aihz. I'm not sure if I stay on to watch until 5 a.m, I would be able to wake up at 10.30 a.m tomorrow morning. Quite a potong issue actually. My dad had called me earlier this evening and asked me how was my local uni appeal and when I will know the results of the appeal which I seriously don't know~ It says by 31st July but then I do not really want to wait that long for nothing.

There, my Dad said that he has a friend in USM and suggested that I should go with him tomorrow to USM to consult from his friend about when the appeal stuff will come out and based on my results, what I should or should not apply.. At least, I can time my next plan if I wanna go for private uni (just in case).. Aihz. I'm not excited either but I think it's the first time my father suggests something NOT SENSELESS to me :) So, I'll just tag along :S I mean, it's time for me to hear from someone more professional, not just the people at home yakking~ :(

Alvin & The Chipmunks

Erm.. Sorry to be a little bit slow but then I just watched Alvin & The Chipmunks recently and I was totally awed!!! The graphics are almost perfect and they are superbly cute!!! Haha.. If only there were real chipmunks in this world that could sing and dance... I would adopt them!!! Hee.. and become my little musical band.

Present to you Alvin & His Friends....

Blue: Simon, Red: Alvin & Green: Theodore!

Well I certainly did not realise that the voice of Theodore was Jesse McCartney!!! Hahahha! Nope, I'm not his fan-cy at all :P But then Theodore is so adorable!!!!!!! It even makes Hock feels like wanna JIooOOOOk him.. Hahahha! And Theodore reminds me so much of Mikey!!!! Maybe it's the colour of their fur and the round innocent eyes! :P And a little bit of tham chiak-ness too.. Heeeee....

Theodore!

Gerammmm!!!! >.<

And this is Mikey!

Cutie pie~

Lolz... I'm not sure how many of you had seen this movie but then for those who haven't, please take some time off to watch this amazing performance by the chipmunks! It can really make your day :) Hee! My favourite is the Rapping Part at bout time 1.46 and the Don't Cha in the dish washer. Lolz!!!!

*Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me~ Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me~ ... AAAaaaaaaaaaaa~~ Lolz!!*

I like Alvin too as he is the cheekiest among them three and Simon can sing pretty well! Anyways, this is just a very short post!!! For my friends that are now in new places seeing new faces, best of luck and do take care....! I miss you guys!!! ;)

C.L.E.A.R.E.D

Well, this could be another random post of mine again :) As most of us have expected this to happen, hmm... just a matter of sooner or later... that all friendships have come to a crossroad. Yup, going Malacca one going Malacca to eat gula Melaka.. Going Sabah one going Sabah to bersabar.. Going to University Putra one going to become the next Putera.. okay fine, that was pretty cookie :S But I'm just sad... Especially my bestie YuYu and non-biological brother, Kitty are leaving so far away.

Well, when I say friendships come to a crossroad, I don't mean that it has come to an end but then it's just that there'll be no more so much noobshits can be done together anymore. When they come back for sem break oso maybe I'll be busy with my own course work then when I'm free and down time they are an MSN away, not like a call away anymore :S

So this could be the first part of my misery. Comes second part is.. the pressure from family about my studies. I don't know what to do. Everybody wants a piece of me but then they cant be possibly chopping my head into half and leaving the other half swaying in the air. Ooo.. that's gross. I just think I need some time to cool things off alone. That I did even came up with a o-so-brilliant-idea (actually a stupid plan) of going for a hotel stay alone but then I would wish to spend some time with my closest buddies too. Again, I meant... CLOSESTTTT.. So we made it like our own little farewell. No big invitation cuz, the rooom was not big at all :P

Aihz.. A very troubled soul I am these days. SO many things happen in a short time added with some stresses in the family-there are just things happening which I think I don't want to comment further. I'm sure my CLOSESTTTT know what is it anyways :( I just need one good day just 24 hours.. to be away from home and think thru my life seriously. I'm 20 now not 16 anymore. So much so that I want to think at the same time I want to run away from reality too. Oh GOD, what am I supposed to do??? DEPRESSED.

Then while on the way to the hotel, I received a last minute notification from Kah WHai saying that there was going to be a BBQ thing going on. Well, just ignored whatever plans we had at first cuz they weren't important at all and we proceeded to the beach. Talk and talk and talk, and it ended with a stormy weather :) So, me and my friends, my old CPT kakis just cabut in Ai Phing's car and then not so sure of what plans the other people have but I just know that a few of them had already been booked by me ;)

I started to forget a little bit of my miseries, but then they are still there, somewhere. Hiding when there are friends, come pestering me when I'm alone. We are not bad girls and bad boys but just like any other ordinary teenagers, we have some knots in lives to let lose. So, we proceeded with our mini plan, Mois. Cheers for the friendship! Actually, I think they just want to entertain me. I was just persistent about it, not sure why... :I

Yayz! Met Pei Wen there.. It's good to see familiar faces in this kinda place when you are just freshly baked from the oven dunno anything much. So, it all ended with Bleeding Love :)

Reached room and it was another suffering drama :S It's a promise that no more NEXT TIME. Take my word for it this time, and yeah I mean you! ahHHHhahahha :P So in that state of half consciousness, I was still able to think and filtered off something. I guess, from today onwards.. I'm quite clear of what I should do. Passion and interest aside, reality comes first :) That's why my blogpost is titled CLEARED. So can say that, I feel lighter now :)

I'm pretty stable now, I hope it lasts :)

And dedication to all of you, thanks for spending some of your precious time with me. Appreciate it and really sorry if there was any misunderstanding caused. It wasn't deliberate :S

It's All About The Good Old Days

Yes.. it's really all about the good old days in CPT. Although there were a few tough to handle teachers, we still made it thru. CheeErsS!

First, let me show you around my classroom. I was in 5 Science 1 and FYI, CPT only has 2 science classes which were Science 1 and Science 2!! Hahaha! And Jacquelyn Soon was the girl next door :P but we share the same moral lessons though.. Haha! Science 2 would come over and you bet! Moral lessons were always.. a free period for Jacquelyn Soon... Hahaha!

I still remember, during F5.. we had to complete a Moral Project or something like that and we had to snap a few pictures of US PERFORMING SOME... GOOD DEEDS :) So called good deeds :) Our favourite teacher for Moral was Pn. Ooi Chun Yoke and her favourite student was obviously Jacquelyn Soon... hahahahha!

A Great Poser She Is......

Jacquelyn Soon picking up rubbish posed!

Jacquelyn Soon wiping windows posed!

Jacquelyn Soon wiping tables posed!

Lolz!!! Well, Jacquelyn Soon was obviously a student who knew how to work hard and play even harder :D When she was not seen doing good deeds, you might see her turning Moral Lessons upside down...

Jacquelyn Soon LOL...

Jacquelyn Soon dianugerahi Plat Kebersihan :)

Ahahaha.. Now you tell me, why wouldn't she become the favourite student of Pn. Ooi Chun Yoke??? She was so COMPLETE :) ahahahhAH! So, finally she completed her Kerja Amal Moral after countless times of reminder from Pn. Ooi... Hee!

And next, let me introduce some more classmates of mine to you :)

It's Doris, the Asst CM acting good :)

It's Ai Phing, the Class Treasurer (left) collecting debts from Alicia

Skuad Kebersihan

(from left: Mei Ling, Teenes and Naomi Campbell Soup!)

And it's me and the First Girl, Felicia Long!

Sarah, Alicia and Me!

When there was teacher....

And when there was no teacher....

And now, it's time to show you around the canteeennnn...

Last but not least.. a class picture of 5 Science 1 minus Pauline Chin Yoon Lin!!!

And here's Connie Cheng, our Tai Ka Che!

Those were really good old days we had in CPT. Worry free everyday. Got homework, don't do. Got test, just fail. Got scolded, just laugh. It was just... a chaotic situation to the teachers.. Lolz!

Spooky Wardrobe

This is a story about a couple who had found a new home and they moved into the house just right after they got married. The first 2 years of their marriage was a sweet honeymoon period for them but eventually when came the 3rd year, everything soured.

The wife started to come home very late at night after work and sometimes even weekends too and was seen chauffeured to and fro by another guy. And came a night where the husband couldn't endure his wife's adultery any longer that he confronted his wife on that matter and without a second thought, the wife had asked for a divorce.

The husband whom was filled with anger, rage and despair had done something that changed his life forever. His senses was overpowered by his anger raged soul as he stumbled into the kitchen and took a knife then went back to the wife, whom was seen retrieving clothes from the wardrobe and the husband went berserk and started to stab the wife's repeatedly on her back. He then pushed the wife into the wardrobe and locked it.

He then sat beside the wardrobe motionless even the badly injured wife was weakly crying in great pain inside the wardrobe, longing for help. Blood was dripping from corners of the wardrobe and still, the husband was just sitting down there, motionless. Came dusk and the wife became all quiet, she had died inside the wardrobe.

Then it was time to get rid of the body and the husband decided to bury her body in their garden, at the back of their house and went back to the wardrobe, cleaning.

He then sent a message to the guy on behalf of his wife that read, "I still love my husband and I'm not going anywhere but here with him." So no one knew about what had happened actually, the brutal murder of the wife.

As he was afraid to live in that house all alone and yet he didn't want to leave the memories he once had in this house so he decided to rent out rooms to people. HIS ROOM to be exact. No matter how hard he tried to convince the tenants, they would insist to move out after a month or so. Maybe it was the design of the room that didn't please them so he had asked for renovation and decided, it was time to get rid of that... wardrobe. He then moved it into the storeroom.

As that wardrobe was a custom made piece of the design, he decided to auction it online for a value rather than to discard it away. And it was bought by a second hand furniture shop and he was all relieved~

Then came a day where someone had approached him for his room for rent and he gladly brought that person to have a look at the newly renovated room of his. The deal was successful and the only thing he suggested the new tenant should do was just to find himself a wardrobe and that was all.

A week later, the new tenant moved in. Together with the new wardrobe he had just gotten for himself. And he found a perfect place in the room to fit that wardrobe of his.

Then came the landlord to his room to check out how was everything going on. With a very startled and terrified expression of his face, he whispered... "Oh My God...."

It was the same wardrobe his wife was killed and was hid in. Yes, it was.....

A Motion of Passion

I'm depressed now. No doubt my new blog skin as well the blog title suggests the other way round, Cheerful Choya. :) What is ever so cheerful in Choya's life??? Some may say that I have so many people around my life that love me loads, family and friends yet why do I have to feel so crappy? True, I have friends that are awesome but then I have a family that not just they love me a heaven, but often they also doubts my ability. They always say I'm old enough to get some of my senses right but when I propose my ideas, somehow or rather the response I get is "A 20 year old girl with immature thoughts" or maybe they will think my worries and insecurities are unnecessary and simply brush me off with a one-second-response... don't worry too much.

me and some "petty issues" being brushed off....

If you ask me what have I done for myself for the past 20 years, other than always wanting the best and wanting so badly to let my loved ones to feel so proud of me that I put their feelings before myself then my life indeed has nothing else. Obviously there is no one to be blamed in this situation. It's just me myself and I being.... nice perhaps. It's just by nature it occurs.

Results of Universities Admission is out and it is mendukacitakan. I'm not sure if I have to feel happy or sad about it as... I know at the end of the day after I graduate from Uni, I won't be doing something related to it. Me going to Uni is more to like again, wanting to make my mum feel proud and happy as I CAN GO TO UNI... But then my passion lies somewhere else. And maybe I should feel happy that now I can pursue what I like now.. but then again what I like may not please my family. Should I listen to myself or to them, I'm lost.

And it's so easy to say, follow what your heart wants or fight for yourself but then it's never easy to do so. I mean it's not easy to fight in this life all alone right? Could it be true that we must always listen to the elders as they are more experienced in life and their speculations are always true?

Previously I was thinking that I made a right choice of switching altogether to courses not related to science at all in USM as I thought that my result should be okay for certain language or management subjects. Then I thought if I stayed in Penang, I can take up part time beautician course and after 14 months I can work part time while studying for some money. And I would like to save a portion of my money for my dream after 3 years in Uni. I never told any of my family members before that I'm all along interested in designing cuz since young I was taught that if you want to earn good money and a stable job, SCIENCE IS THE WAY! Engineers and doctors were very cool profession to me... THEN.

But as I ventured into science, I find that it was all exciting and interesting but it was not something that I feel it's for me. I could handle the stress but I couldn't handle the questions!!!! And I started to flunk. Each time I stared blankly into my textbooks, minutes later I found myself flipping through magazines. LOlz! I was lazy and further and further I drifted from my... studies which makes me a failure (to my mum) today.... I'm sorry.

And recently, I made up my mind on designing and I am torn between graphics & multimedia or fashion design technology. Graphics with good job prospect but I have lesser interest and fashion with 100% interest and passion but then it's a hard and rocky way to stardom. Obviously my bro said Graphics better, I know it's better but then... I like to eat Mango although I know Kiwi has more vitamins :) So I'm lost again.

I told my bro and he said, "Mmm.. Graphics is good, very good cuz there's a demand in market now. Mmm you can do it, I think the fees is ok..." bla bla bla but when I kept correcting him it was fashion and he overheard it. "No I said fashion designing..." I corrected and he went, "Hmm Good choice. Graphics is good..." and when finally he got it into his ear fashion designing he went... "HAr?? Fashion?? MAI LA. MANA OO HO!!"

I told my sis and she said maybe I'm confused with what I want in life and ask me to think properly again. But why none ask me a question I expect, "do you really want it?"

But then my mum cuts me off the most. I started a discussion with her by saying, "Mum, I have thought for a few days and maybe I should let you know what I come in conclusion? I think I like designing." :) and she went "SIGN LU EH KACHUI LA. Beh jip USM lu ki ka wa cho kang than lui liao la!!" :) I swallowed my tears. I'm strong, I'm strong.

The whole day today, I feel so depressed and discouraged. Depressed till I feel that my heart feels so numb yet my lungs want to scream out loud and my body wants to vanish and my soul shatters. And I'm so discouraged that suddenly I think my confidence and passion for designing disappeared and yea.. maybe I should just go work and continue to walk the life of my mum's ideal daughter. Suddenly it feels so good if I just never wake up again tomorrow :)

Maybe... maybe everything about fashion designing... is just a hallucination. Maybe... maybe continue pleasing others is the best for everyone. They are happy. They are proud of me. And I am... and shall continue to lose myself each and everyday. Someday I'm going to leave this world. Why bother. Who am I. Just another girl. Just another small life. Just another person that God loves :)

Goodbye my dream...

and see you another day....

Last night as I was chatting to my sis. She said something to me. "Bro and me loves you very much all this while and we always want the best for you. I don't see why you should be feeling so this way about yourself...." I love them too. But then, it's so sad that it's pointless to know how many people love you but you don't love yourself. You are not doing what you love to do in life and what is there about yourself to be loved?? To me, is nothing :)

Life Is Random, Death Is Certain

Helloz people :) I'm back in Netcity, again :P Urm.. I remember the last time I stepped into this place was... like about half a year ago. Hee! Aihz.. What to do?? My computer is acting like a complete fool and laptop is hacked by Pokemon!! :( So that is a good reason why my blog had been so dead lately that some anonymous tried to spice up a little by making a friendly invitation for sex with him. Hmmm.. Cheap thrills.. GET THT?? Lolz! Thanks to Zhi Xiang for pushing the lousy msg up in Sempoi Box, at least it was not the first thing I see after 2 weeks being disconnected from my beloved blog :P

Cut the long story short. I'm sure you guys must have heard of a deadly crime in Japan recently, which the crime is better known as Stabbing Rampage in Akihabara [Tokyo]: 7 people killed!

I find no words to describe this crime. But I do really sympathize all the victims involved in this horrible incident. I mean, what can be worse that waking up early in the morning and getting all dressed up to welcome a new day in life and while you're happily walking down the streets just shortly after noon then suddenly you are stabbed by someone whom later claims that he's tired of his life- that he's being ugly and lonely :S To be honest, this incident gives me a larger impact than the earthquake in SiChuan, China.

The assailant, Tomohiro Kato is just 25 years old and he told the police that he's tired of his life and he had came to Akihabara to kill people, it didn't matter whom he'd kill. How psychotic! I mean, if he's so tired of his life then why not he just go and kill himself for good and not taking others' lives away like this. Moreover, they had done nothing to him.

Ironic as it sounds, this ugly loner, Kato had sent a series of messages by mobile phone to a website that appeared to foretell the attack that sounds like this:

“I’ll crash my vehicle into people and if the vehicle becomes useless, I’ll get out a knife. Goodbye everyone!”

Subsequent messages appeared to chart the suspect’s journey from Shizuoka to Tokyo.

“No postponement because of rainy weather,” said a later message.

Another posting, some 20 minutes before the attack, simply said: “It’s time,” was added.

Oh my God. How sad and cruel is this tragedy. I somehow have this dramatic thought that for those who were killed, maybe they were on their way to meet up their loved ones or maybe some who were on their way to propose to someone they admired for some time and finally they had the courage to splurt out and zooop! They left without a word. Imagine for some who have dogs at home and those cute creatures innocently waiting for their owners to return home but they never again after that morning they left home after wearing the shoes. I feel like crying. Sorry for being too dramatic :'(

Take a look at the following pictures of the crime and lets close our eyes and pray, that tomorrow can be a better day for us.