H.O.T

Aihz.. I'm feeling that my body is getting weaker and weaker as I get older. You see, I rarely fell sick last time despite exposing my skin for hours marching under the sun and racing with the time till late at night to finish up the unfinished homework and assignments. So durable back then. But now, the interval of falling sick is getting closer. Out of the blue, after reaching home at about 5 yesterday, I started feeling a little bit dizzy and when I'm dizzy, I'd feel nausea and when I feel nausea it means, I'm falling sick. But thank god that there isn't any fever, and I'm feeling much much better now! Maybe it is due to the tiring and packed schedule lately. Had been staying back in school till late noon joining the crowd for interclass and interboards for the past 2 weeks!

Or maybe it is due to him ??

St. Xavier's version of Hugh Grant!

The last G.M was the best G.M that I'd ever attended! It was a blast and mind blowing time having to hear him uttering, "Oh my god, it's H.O.T man..." LOL!!! You see, sometimes, life can be filled with many sweet surprises. Especially when some candy moments pop out of a sudden. Thanks to Jin Chuen for this

I thought that this was the noobiest pose I'd ever taken but not now anymore.

H.O.T!!!

And the consequences of the breath taking compliment is

I'm really impressed with Zhi Xiang's tapak kasut. Thanks to him, I'm so motivated of washing my school shoe EVERY WEEK now!!!

Other then this hot G.M experience, I had a fun time at the Penang Bridge Marathon too! I saw Kenny Sia!!! He looked so much cuter in real life than his pictures in his blogs. Sad for Wei Lian, too busy building bonds with the track and overlooked Kenny! Although I did not manage to snap a photo with him, but when I close my eyes, the image is still clear. AHAHHAHAHA! Including the noob things I did when I saw him breezed pass! :P

Yea. 3 hours of time limit for 22.3 km marathon, we still had time for this!

Still that thought, 6th Form's life, no doubt is stressful and a tedious journey but I really enjoy every single moment of it in St. Xaviers. There were many things in my life that I thought I wouldn't do it, but I accomplished them here! Let me highlight a few of them.

1) I'm afraid of injections all this while. I would say phobia but God knows why I finally overcome that fear by losing my very first packet of blood, as in blood donation (not that girly thing) to Penang General Hospital! It was one hell of a bloody time I swear. I could feel the effect of losing the blood at the same time the blood was being drawn out from my 45kg of body, then. :P Kapoot on the scene! When I gained full conscious, I was the last donor lying down and all my friends surrounding me. Siew Lay said that I looked like I was in the labour room! Ishk!

2) The only camp that I'd ever been to when I was in secondary, was Kem Perpaduan and that was when I was 14. Cuz I wasn't in guides and I did not have that much opportunity to camp. The most memorable camp I'd ever been to throughout the entire F6 was to Brothers Bungalow in Penang Hill. You know, there were alot of spooky tales being told and I was quite sceptical of joining it at first as I was the only girl from B.O.L and there were only 4 girls out of the 100 participants. But I did not regret the times I had there including the ghost stories at 2 a.m. I shall say, that was the 1st and last time I'd ever step before that place. Room 16*

3) Then comes the Buddhist Procession during Wesak Day this year. I never thought that I'd have that opportunity to join this kinda holy procession. 4 hours of plain walking with some sempoi friends was quite a sempoi thing. The night before that, we even voluntarily helped out in the temple selling flowers! What a practicing Buddhist we've become after joining BSS. Not forgetting the memorable tour to the temple and did some wonderful painting job there! I bet the monks regretted answering Terk Zhi's call!

4) But one of my many first times in F6, that I somehow still couldn't believe that I'd done it was the whole MC thing for B.O.L farewell last year. Obviously, this was not like hosting for American Idol nor America's Next Top Model but somehow, a little or much, I overcome my fear of stage fright. I tend to get tongue tied when all eyes and ears are on me! Never in my life that I stood in front of such crowd to talk without SCRIPTS! But I was lucky enough to have a sempoi partner, Ryan Kam.

5) Then it comes to Inauguration Night where I performed for the cultural dance. I think the last time that I went up to the stage and dance was when I was Std. 3 performing Mary Had A Little Lamb and I was the Mary. I enjoy watching others dance but I just don't know why, I can't seem to do it! Shy* :P Almost gave up when I couldn't master the art of spinning the fan, but wee! I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of cuz, I'd go on and on and on and on if I don't stop now. There are just many beautiful things happening around me that I could just highlight a few. I can't deny that there are unpleasant times as well but that's what makes my life one piece of a DRAMA!

Unrevealed

Behind my silence, there's a great secret.
Behind my deeds, there's a meaning.
Behind my courage, there's a fear.

Behind my resilient body, there's a core made of shattered glass.
Behind my spirit, there's a vulnerable soul.
Behind my tears, there's a bitter sorrow.

Beneath my skin, there's a stream of regretness.
Beneath my blanket, there's a bed of unforgettable memories.
Beneath my scar, there lies a fresh painful wound.

I'm not complicated, but just cynical at times.
I'm becoming more and more impaired each day,
facing the strong current of obstacles.
I'm falling, really falling.

I can't believe I can't do it despite reminding myself everyday.
Having to lie to myself everyday isn't easy but that's what keeps me on the ground.
But it is just so hard,
I don't wanna take it anymore even if I could... I really don't...

I don't know what it's like the day after tomorrow,
the seconds after this,
the moon after sun..
But I just want to salvage as much as I can,
even I'm losing much more than I could benefit myself.
Even 1 second, or a minute of happiness, I'm more than contented to pick up the scattered jewels and bottle them up,
to light the rest of my 24 hours.

I don't have a reason cuz I know it needs no reasons.
It worths everything I'm doing it for.
Distance shall not matter.

After all,
when I look into the mirror,
I'm just an ordinary human being.

I Can't Explain Myself At All

This is the 3rd time that I logged in after logging out twice. Yes or no, yes or no to blog. I don't know how to describe bout my feelings now, it's a mixture of everything. I very much want to blog to loosen myself but of cuz there are somethings I just can't explain. If only I knew, I wouldn't be feeling like this at all.

The more I try to untie this knot, the tighter it gets.
With time, the negative has become a quality, and a zero has become a hero.
But why isn't this flame turning into a beam yet?

Why is it everytime that after I feel I had a great day, there somehow comes a spoiler at the end of the day?

There are somethings that I clearly know I have to avoid but it's unavoidable simply cuz I can't even I want to.
There are somethings I choose not to see, to hear and to know...but I end up seeing, hearing and knowing all of it and it's doing nothing more than clouding me up.

I'm just so tired of this kinda uncertainties in life. Very much I want a break from all these but there's no such thing as taking a break in this life, the world keeps spinning and the clock keeps ticking, everything keeps revolving around us in life and till the day that we can rest in peace is when we're in the casket, be it returned to God opened or unopened.

How much I want the good times to stay when I know time devours them. It's true that they remain as sweet memories but beneath this candy thoughts, you know that they are just something pleasant that had passed. At most we'd just feel glad that we'd been there, done that.
But why aren't the dark times as the prey of time as well? Time heals but it's not going to compensate the trauma, hurt and despair that once been felt. And it's not just a mere, something bad that had passed and be glad that it's all over. It somehow sets an existing yet invisible barrier between me and the present, at least for me.

According to Pn. Shirley, we have to practice detachment in our lives as we continue to move on no matter what. She has a point there.
But is this really true when it comes to the fact that you've lost something that you've once live your life with, it is that easy to get over it and look into the mirror and then say, "Hey, practice detachment nia lo~"
...??...

Life Confrontations

I followed my mum to the hospital for 3rd check-up today. Everybody is saying that life's unpredictable, life's fragile and life's vague. But today I really felt that uncertainties of life, for real after looking at one particular patient being hurried into the Operating Theatre, while I was waiting for my mum outside the Endoscopy Room. He was awake and I see nothing in him but a hopeless expression.

I always think that, this kinda scene only exists on TV screen. I can't help but to wonder, what would I feel if I were that patient being hurried into the Operating Theatre. All this while, I'm sure most of us would think that operation is a best solution for a treatment and I always wonder why some people are so stubborn as to put their lives in jeapordy for not accepting operation, they just let go the chance of surviving even if it were just 0.01%! But now I know, it takes alot of courage and mental preparations as you wouldn't know what may happen on that table, you may not be alive when out. :} I always have this far fetched thought that, what if the anaesthetic given is not enough and I wake up in the midst of operation. Just kill me!

30 minutes had gone and I know my mum would not finish her scope so fast since she would be given anaesthetic so I took a stroll along that floor. I saw many different rooms, each diagnosing different kinda illness. A typical scene, many patients were waiting for their turns outside the room, old and young. And it set me wonder, which of these rooms that I might end up be in one fine day? No one knows. And suddenly, this reminds me of a game I'd played, Theme Hospital! :P

Of course I must be thinking too much as a matter of fact, but it's good to have a mental preparation at times. I've never had a body check-up before, but the idea of it shakes my ground. What if suddenly there's a tumour here and there?? But how long can we escape from live confrontations.

Just then when the doctor was explaining my mum's progress after the scope, I saw something which I'd prefer to tell myself that I'd never seen it. It was written in the report that there's a query? malignant ulcer. MALIGNANT?! But it thank god there was a query? sign which means, it's just a speculation and it's not certain according to my brother's girlfriend. But the doctor had told my mum that, if it doesn't heal, she might have to go for an operation. Operation~ I dunno what's my feelings now, but it's not a pleasant one.

Another test and obstacle from God, I can't reject and say NO as the nature is in His hands, but I can't handle much. One thing at a time, that's my prayer.

How Bizarre

Has anyone of you seen a lizard performing acrobatic before?

.......??.......

Cuz I had =}

There!

Guess where I found this magnificent pose?

At the wall, of my room.

At first, I thought it was pretty cute. Lizard isn't in my Fear Factor list anyway, but bees and cockroaches ARE! So I drew a closer look at it and found that it was actually dead. What a tragic death? I mean, what happened to it?! Lets take a closer look at it.

What a perfect move. Does this remind you of the Cicak Man??

And after that, it set me thinking for sometime. There could be a few possibilities of this tragic death.

1) Maybe it was trying to catch its prey that it tried to do a backturn, too fast too furious and crack! He broke his backbone???

2) Maybe its feet had stucked to the wall and it was trying hard to get away but failed to and just..died there???

3) Struck by a cupid...

Ouucch!

Noobies In PetroSains

Hoo Hoo Hoo!!! I finally found a way to upload videos into my blog. Once again, thanks to Mr. Chow Huo Kit!

I'd shot many noob videos when we were in PetroSains but I bet 2 videos are enough to show you how noob we were..:P


That video was taken when we reached the oil platform of Petronas! Notice we were stammering as we talked, that was cuz of the drilling effect on the ground! And that itchy hand that molested the driller's ass was of cuz SIEW LAY!

Erm, before you watch the following video, please be prepared for the sound of the laughter as it's a lil bit off the hook and crappy :P I advise you to lower the volume of your speakers, headsets or whatever if you don't wanna make heads turn :D


It wasn't deliberate okay! Just felt so hilarious at that time looking at how much ENERGY Zhi Xiang used to pull the gear down. Anyway, you don't expect much from a XX kg person right? Well, he clearly needs APPETON! ahahahahha!

Reviews Of K.L Trip

Woke up at 5.30 a.m and took my own sweet time to get ready for the adventure, K.L! It felt very much like a kampung girl who was going to venture out of her small village to the big city! Reached school exactly at 6.30 a.m with a luggage size like this for a 2 days and 1 night trip

When Siew Lay and Zhi Xiang settled with a backpack and a sling bag only. Kah Whai's luggage size ranked the second after mine. Su Chin asked if we were in a chau loh plan!

First destination was to Taylor's College. *yawns*...Career Talk...again~ I guess my row wasn't really paying much attention to what the guy was trying to say as you can see Zhi Xiang was constructing his very own masterpiece, The 50 cents Tower...

A genuine physics student indeed.

Our next journey after the talk was to visit the Tugu Negara and Taman Asean. Thank God it rained heavily so the tour there was cancelled. Hurraaayyy!!! It meant that we had more time for Timesquare! Instead of till 3 hours..it was like 4 hours now! :P

Nothing much did we see in Timesquare although sales were everywhere. Nothing much did I shop for there except these 2 lil things below:-

Bolster is wearing a pink polka dot belt. RM 10, from Pink.

Went to Borders, Female is my favourite magazine! A magazine which only costs RM 8 features items that cost thousands like a kiam poh skirt that worths RM 2000 from Just Cavilli. Noob!

I was still looking for a pair of nice walking shoe. I don't mind investing on a really good pair of shoe as it pleases my feet and my heart oso la :P! All of us were walking directionless looking for Padini and Seed and finally we were told that there's no Seed and Padini in Timesquare. So we walked all the way over to Sungei Wang. Thank God the boys were good in navigating. And I finally got the shoe I wanted!! I wanted the gold one but they say RED is hotter. So I agreed to them. And it felt somewhat very funny that Chie Siang, Lawrence and Yi Min were part of the shopping mates! Walked over to Sungei Wang just to get to Seed and Padini as requested by me and Kah Whai.

I finally found you!

Fortunately, Siew Lay found her shoes in Adidas here. But sad for Kah Whai, no Padini in Sungei Wang... :O Then found myself a Reebok socks. Very comfortable indeed.

The reason I bought this socks was cuz of the silver Rbk prints on it that matches the silver streaks on my shoe but it's not noticeable AT ALL. But it worths the price of comfort. Do the black prints look like a frog to you?? It's not. :P

After that, we reached at the Hotel Maluri safe and sound. Well, it wasn't that bad for a 3 star hotel after all. All the girls were so tired that we wanted a pillow talk but the naughty boys couldn't stop their itchy fingers by pranking over the room lines. Good for them as the girls got ready much earlier than them the next day! :D neh neh ni bubu*

Well the first tour of the 2nd day was to Masjid Jamil --> Dataran Merdeka. We considered ourselves lucky being able to witnesss our king's birthday there. The scene was exactly like what you'll see on RTM. Surprisingly there were not much people.

Photographer: Tan Chie Siang
We didn't realise that everyone behind us were standing as the arrival of the VIP(s) and you have these four models sitting down posing for a shot??

Next stop, KLCC --> PetroSains! Although we didn't get the chance to board the stimulation whooops! I mean the SIMULATION HELICOPTER...eheheheheh! According to Zhi Xiang, the helicopter stimulates you..ahhahahahaha! NOOB! We really had a fun time there but too bad there were not much pics from there except for this one:-

This is a so called level 3 brain teasers. Forming a huge square out of the broken geometrical pieces. We OWNED it! :D

And I have many hillarious videos I can't store into my blog. SAD.

KLCC was our last stop in K.L which means Kah Whai had the last chance to shop for his baju idaman from Padini here but luck was not with him but nevermind, he got what he wanted badly after all too the previous night, a packet of dry jiu hu. :P The brands in KLCC are like what? Fcuk, LV, Moschino, Gucci, Chanel, Salabianca, Philosophy &.... How could we possibly afford those hi-end brands? So we stopped window shopping and resort in a loitering programme. We stood by the rails and started washing our eyes with the passer-bys.

On the way back to Penang, we stopped by Ipoh to shop for some local delicacies. Then I bought this:-

Shat Kei Ma is a very famous local delicacy from Ipoh. It tastes best when accompanied by a cup of tea while watching Astro AEC! Zhong Xian* mmm~ :P

Basically there's so much so from K.L. It was a pleasant trip after all, better than what had been expected. Sometimes, how exciting a trip can be depends on the companies around you. It's all about being around the right group of friends and it'll make a difference! :D

Turn Over A New Leaf

Here's a list of gadgets I can't blog happily without them:-

A camera is a must have!!! I mean digital of course! I used to wonder why would people have the urge to invest on a quality camera. Now I taste the rainbow of it! ahahahahhahaha!!!

My english isn't that superb therefore, I always keep a Thesaurus by my side as a way of brushing up my english while blogging. I mean it would be a better alternative than using limited vocabs like fuckheads and bitches unnecessarily right? :P This is my bible when it comes to producing a great long shit of an essay. Especially factual ones...

A pair of hands with a total of 10 fingers to molest the keyboard from A-Z!



A laptop with a Streamyx connection.

Last but not least of course is a GOOD AND CLEAN BRAIN! Not any pea-sized brain, fuckheads nor clown face can do this. Those are reserved for the circus! :D




Ohhh my goddd!! I'm so in love with Googles Blogger now!!! It really gives me whole new sensation of blogging. Well, it's not that I mean to be kacang lupakan kulit as to leave a bad comment on Friendster Blog after years of blogging but its features are rrrrrreeeeaaaaaalllllly limited. The size of the images are not small but tiny, the featured background is sleep inducing, the fonts available resemble taugeh and one of my major encounters with it is, there were times when I was blogging halfway and there were technical errors on the page and guess what? The whole content I blogged would go M.I.A! Grrrrrrrr... But with Googles Blogger, it saves my drafts automatically each and every minute and I feel so pampered as a blogger now! Err..I think I made a very convincing promo of Googles Blogger but arggghhh... I'm not paid! :D I highly recommend this for those blogs' virgins who are interested in losing their first time to BLOGS!

Firstly, I'd like to thank Huo Kit for introducing this to me. Patiently, he guided me step by step to creating an account which was verryy useful indeed. At first I was thinking about Xanga but I've seen many bimbo blogs in Xanga. It's like I feel tunghing@blogspot would definitely sound better than tunghing@xanga ehehhehehehe..

Next, I'd like to thank Robert for his idea of my blog title although he had suggested a few really noob ones such as erm Auntie Qing's Blog, A Noobie's Blog & etc. ahahahahaha! Well, as he said that he'd squeeze something to do with my name in his hospital next time with a condition that I were to be his main sponsorer. Hien sit is the word!

It makes me feel so much like a blogger now being equipped with so many new great features at blogger! I admit that Kenny Sia's blog does help in inculcating an interest in me to blog. I only frequent his blog and no others except for my friends'. I don't find there's any nice stuff on Xia Xue's blog honestly other than her hot body and pretty face. Obviously, I don't vision myself to be a top blogger at all, but I just enjoy sharing my journal of life with my friends and theirs with the world-indirectly! ahahhahahahahah..

Okay! I finally accomplish my first post! Zhi Xiang is rushing me...I've told him, "Gimme 15 more mins" for a few times d. He can't wait to see his noobshit face in my blog...ahahahhahahhaa! ZZZZZzzzzooooooooooommmmmmmmm!